A new post for my fans ;)

So does anyone get on blogspot anymore? I think people have better things to do with their time... like log onto facebook... But I think the world needs to know that I'm pregnant... just kidding. That would be pretty sweet... giving the circumstances that I was married and not still in school.

God is a God of peace. right? he loves, gives joy, saves... it's so awesome. Sometimes though, we go through things that no matter how much we read and how much we worship we don't feel at peace. So does that mean we don't have a good relationship with God at the time? If someone has hurt me and I'm crying and angry, am i farther away from God because of that?

This past week has been the worse week of my life. Someone I trusted with all of my heart and truly believed in lied to me and threw me away like I was nothing. During all of this I was hurt, confused with how to react in certain situations, I have cried, barely eaten, barely slept. I have been far from at peace. But, I have still prayed, sought the Lord's truth, and worshiped him in my weakness.

So is being at peace with God the only way to be close to him? I don't think so. I've felt at peace with the Lord, and still felt far. But now, I feel God holding me through this. I cling to his promises that I will be ok and experience true peace and joy through difficult situations. The Lord is close to the Brokenhearted. The Lord has blessed me with friends to make me laugh when I thought I would never laugh again. He will eventually bless me with peace and understanding of his perfect plan. I have a family who loves me. No one can bring me down from the Lord's right hand. I am there no matter how hurt, how happy, how much I run from him, how angry I am...etc. The Lord's love will never fail me. He is good.

So some of ya'll have no idea what I am talking about, only a few close friends do, but If you could please keep me, this situation, and the person who hurt me in your prayers I'd really appreciate it.

Love,
~Lauren

Revelation Song

Worthy is the, Lamb who was slain
Holy, Holy, is He
Sing a new song, to him who sits on
Heaven's mercy seat

Holy, Holy, Holy
Is the Lord God Almighty
Who was, and is, and is to come
With all creation I sing
Praise to the King of Kings
You are my everything
And I will adore You

Clothed in rainbows, of living color
Flashes of lightning, rolls of thunder
Blessing and honor, strength and glory and power be
to You the only wise King

Holy, Holy, Holy
Is the Lord God Almighty
Who was, and is, and is to come
With all creation I sing
Praise to the King of Kings
You are my everything
And I will adore You

Filled with wonder, awestruck wonder
At the mention of your name
Jesus your name is power
Breath, and living water
Such a marvelous mystery
Yeah...

Holy, Holy, Holy
Is the Lord God Almighty
Who was, and is, and is to come, yeah
With all creation I sing
Praise to the King of Kings
You are my everything
And I will adore You

Ok Now I'm serious when I tell you to listen to this song as loud as your speakers will let you and close your eyes. If you play it on a lap top and it's not very loud then plug some headphones in your ears and turn it up. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n_3W8XI7W2w << class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">youtube.

I think when I do that I'm getting a small glimpse of what heaven will be like. I'm probably way off, but I like to pretend i'm sitting with millions and millions of people with God in front of us on his thrown. When I look up at his thrown it's really bright and i feel really small compared to his power. The part that says "Blessing and honor, strength and glory and power be
to You the only wise King" makes me think of how small and powerless I am, but he's King and he holds my life in his hands. Then the chorus...Dang that chorus...leaves me speachless. Especially this part
"With all creation I sing
Praise to the King of Kings
You are my everything
And I will adore You"
It reminds me that no matter what happens in this life I'll be praising the King forever. I obsess over so many little things that don't matter. God is King and always will be. If i have this assurance then why do I worry? Even the big events in my life will soon go away. School, my future career, my future family...everything that I put before God. Why do I worry about these things when they are all in the hands of such an almighty God? It doesn't make sense does it?

Anyway I just wanted everyone to listen to this song. It's powerful and I love it. byee.

~Lauren~